the way we roll

January 16, 2006

i feel like a mountain fell on me and broke my back into a million little shards (pun intended, n.b.b.). i am currently at work attempting to eat a sandwich with great difficulty, to which, truthfully i feel like each bite is going to make me sick. there's really nothing like waking up really hung over at seven o'clock in the morning, riding afloat a ferry in super choppy water, and having only enough time to take a shower before going to work. where, oh where, has my sensibility gone? but alas it's all in (and for) the sake of awesomeism?

well of course. so let me rephrase. i feel like an awesome mountain awesomely fell on me and broke my back into a million awesome little shards. there, that's much better.

this weekend is a complete blur to me now, but as i try to remember each event, joke, face and laugh, i am overcome with genuinely giddy recollection. and without getting too sentimental (as i've noticed too many of my blogs already contain such an overtone), this has been a good bad year. i know many of you reading this know exactly what i mean, whether you agree or not, which is obviously circumstantially evident. it's been said that this is the year of extremes, and i for one, am extremely elated with what has come from it all. and yet at the same time i am so fearful of the future. maybe i'm jaded (not to be confused with hummus horse) though i'm probably just way too over tired, but i'm fearful of the uncertainty of the future. not just my, but all of our relationships with each other and the stability upon which each is fastened. i guess simply, i'm just happy to be where i am, and don't want that to change anymore than it already has. but change will undoubtedly happen, much of which i'm sure will be favored and welcome. and some of which will not. but that's the way we roll and that's the way we'll always roll from here on out, and i have no regrets (or well, at least not many...) that will stand in the way to change that.

and so, as radiant light of a beautiful setting sun shimmers so peacefully off the horizon, i say "get your ass in here and lay down a card, he's got a jack on the mother fucking table."

and that's the way we roll.