vampires and clown-dogs

February 6, 2006

do you ever wake up in the morning and feel like something isn't quite right? and no matter how physically well you feel, or how awake and ready you are to start the day, you just can't shake the feeling? i don't even really know what the feeling is, but i woke up with it this morning. i usually have a pretty hard time waking up for work monday mornings, but today my eyes peeled open even before my alarm sounded. and i think i should have been hungover, but i wasn't - not in the least, i actually feel pretty darn good. except for this feeling, it's weighing me down like a cinder-block in the woonasquatucket. my spirits are low, my muscles are tense, my thoughts are whirling, and yet i'm unusually calm and fairly collected. i'm ready to face the day in an escape from having to face my dreams.

that's it...my dreams. i've been remembering more of my dreams recently, which is strange for me. and now that i think about it, my dreams have been, the ones that i am remembering anyway, more or less all the same, but unfolding in some weird chronological puzzle. and with each dream, though similarly themed, a new piece of the puzzle is revealed but with a different immediate outcome. an outcome that scares me for i know not how it will effect the rest of the dream because there's never any real long term resolve. but then again perhaps i'm more afraid of the resolution, which i know is bound to come. and it could be good. but it could be bad. i'm not sure what's worse. i guess i'll just have to dream and find out.

damn! vampires and clown-dogs are scary. thank god i don't have to deal with any of this crap in real life.