get out the phaser, it's a time warp
November 28, 2005i've come to a lot realizations this past week after spending a few days in the berkshires. wednesday thru friday i basically went couch surfing, popping in on old friends and relatives. i also ran into people i'd completely forgotten about, people i didn't care to see and people i used to love. these encounters triggered a lot of memories and these two of many different realizations:1) i've been living in providence in this life of mine for so long now that I'd almost completely forgotten what my life was life before it. it is the strangest thing to, after so long, connect with people with whom you used to love and spend so much time. at first it was extremely overwhelming and then suddenly, even after merely three nights of being there, that part of my life started to reanimate and something clicked and, in a way, i felt whole again. but now that i am back here in providence i somehow feel kind of divided. maybe just disturbed. i think maybe i miss my life as it used to be. 2) nothing really phases me anymore. in high school i was never really that outgoing or personable (at least not outside the core of my friends) but i guess i've changed a little. not only was i happy to see almost every person I even remotely knew, but i hugged many of them. i wasn't afraid. i didn't care. it was fun to present myself to this world as the person i have become. perhaps i was even enjoying the act of finally being able to prove that i'm not the shy geek i used to be. i kind of felt like a movie star.in conclusion... there is no conclusion. life is funny. it changes, we change, we reflect and we move on. i guess i just wish we didn't always move on so quickly.
posted by H. Hopkins @ 9:39 AM
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