i get lost
I often find myself in certain situations completely spacing out to the world. Many times it is in my car in the morning driving to work and sometimes I'm simply staring at the wall in my apartment. I know that it is usually onset with stress or having a lot of things to think about, but sometimes I get lost in terrible thought that overcomes me.The other day I was driving and this little kid ran across the street about 50 feet in front of me. I saw him immediately and wasn't in any danger of coming close to him physically, but mentally, as I drove by the spot he crossed, I hit him. Not only did I imagine having hit the poor kid, I felt it. I felt the horrific sensation of seeing this kid wedged under my car, one leg crushed under the front tire and a stream of blood dripping like leaky anti-freeze from the front bumper. And strangely, although bad in itself, the worst part wasn't knowing that I might have killed this kid, it was knowing that I might have taken him away from the people who loved him. I could hear the anguished cries of his parents as they ran to his mangled body beneath my car. And I felt the guilt and unexplainable sadness in myself as I tried to explain what had happened. Can you even imagine?
posted by H. Hopkins @ 12:12 PM
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